Myself

You say you don't understand You don't understand why I'm so needy Why I feel threatened by every girl I see on your feed You say you don't understand... Let me remind you of a time you don't know about A time where I was lost, and couldn't love myself A time when the world convinced me that I'd never be enough That my hair was too rough, and my skin too scorched by the African sun A time when I believed that I was created to be altered in order to fit in the narrow mindsets of those around me A time where I was ashamed to be myself, because people like me did not belong They did not fit in They did not meet the standard A time where beauty was defined by arbitrary factors that I had no control over A time when I was convinced I embodied the definition of ugly Now when you say you don't understand, notice that your ignorance shames my newly found confidence It reverses the process I went through to undo what they had done Those pictures on your feed mean more than just admiration They are my condemnation Emphasising the fact that I'll never be enough Not enough to be loved Not enough to be admired Not enough to be looked at Not enough to be me So don't tell me you love me and then not understand It took a village to build me But it could only take a picture to break me